09 Mar 2015

A question about : levi: la vida loca

This will be my new thread as of 19 February 2015. I have asked for the other one to be removed.

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  • Morning
    Good to see you're still with us, I read your thread but didn't post, would like to subscribe but don't know how.
    You're doing an excellent job with LL, stay strong
    nmlc x
  • Hey, nice to see you.
    To subscribe go to 'Thread Tools' at the top above my first post and Subscribe to Thread, I think that's all - then any updates to subscribed threads will show up in your Control Panel Hope that makes sense xx
  • Whoopee a new thread - the rest of the family are running behind with their suitcases to jump on board!!
    I do hope you didn't have to get up this early to go into the office!!
    New day, new beginnings - it's been said all through your journey, but head up shoulders back, you are doing a wonderful job and LL is a great little chap.
    Waiting now for everyone to catch up - have a better day and embrace the opportunity to open up with the Chaplain, sometimes we need the RL support and hugs although MSE family do a grand job of keeping you buoyant - does that make sense?? Xxxxxx
  • Will subscribe, happy new diary
  • Good morning Levi (and LL)
    I followed your last thread but never actually posted.
    That's not to say that I don't admire what you are doing.
    LL is a very lucky boy to have you as his loving father and with the support of all your new MSE friends I'm sure you will one day become debt free.
    It's going to be a long journey as you know but we'll be here to pick you up when you fall and and congratulate you on your successes.
    Good luck and keep posting!
  • Hi Levi, another lurker here. Not sure that I could have said anything more than the lovely people already have. You are an amazing person and father, LL is so lucky to have you, always remember that. You are doing great.
    Take all the help you need from RL and the MSE There is so much knowledge, compassion and empathy here, what they don't know collectively you could write on the back of a stamp!
    Follow your heart and your instinct, be yourself and although it may be tough it will be ok because it's all coming from the right place. Hope that makes sense.
    Have a good day both of you. X SP
  • Hi Levi,
    Yet another subscribing lurker here
    I have been following your thread since the beginning & think you are doing a wonderful job x
  • #subscribed to la vida loca
  • Hey Levi happy new diary xxx
  • Morning Levi, Another happy morning in paradise ! Good to see youre still here and posting. Id miss you & little L if you wandered off
  • Happy new diary! May it bring you nothing but good luck and positivity Xx
  • 'Bobarella?'
    'Present and correct & ready for new diary'
    'Take a seat'
  • Hi Levi - I posted a few times on your old thread and will subscribe to your new one. Love the new title and keep up the brilliant work you are doing.
  • Another lurker from your old diary
    I can only echo what everyone else has already said.
    You are an amazing person & a 'super-dad'.
    Your posts are always heartfelt & honest. So glad you gave decided to start a New diary the support you receive & also give to others is second to none & I for one am very happy to see it continue.
    Subscribed xx
  • Morning Levi! Happy New thread day!!! Love the title as well. Have a wonderful day xx
  • Thank for all the replies Love it when some lurkers chirp up too, thank you
    Well I'm certainly living the crazy life - this morning has been completely insane.
    Will explain more later .. for now, must do some work. Levi x
  • Have followed on from previous thread.............liking the new title as well......much more upbeat.
    Don't let what happened bother you too much.
    Keep up the good work. You have an awful lot of people rooting for you!
  • another lurker subscribing
    keep up the good work
  • So while it's quiet I'll do a small update because tbh everything went tits up (are we allowed to say tits? guess I'll find out) and it will be therapeutic to write it down a little.
    Lilty said the other day that I'd had my 3 things.. but little did I know the worst was still yet to come.
    I went into work this morning to collect/drop off some paperwork and whilst there checking through stuff I received an email from [new job guy] SR. He asked if I had time to see him that morning and given that I was in and had no real rush to get back to LL (who was with FGN).. I said I'd meet him right away. I was highly expecting that he would be letting me know about an interview and have been beside myself with excitement/anxiety about the prospect as ya'll who followed my thread will know!
    (Small background: SR had been "grooming" me for this new role since last year when he kinda singled me out to see if I'd be interested in working in his dept, said I had everything it took, created a role with me in mind, guided me through application, told me I would definitely be interviewed, the money would be excellent, exactly the kind of break/change I needed, got my hopes up massively to the point of thinking despite all of my low self confidence and pessimism, that I'd get the job.. blah blah blah.)
    Met with SR a while later, sat down, he told me "I'm afraid it's bad news".
    NOT EVEN SHORTLISTED FOR INTERVIEW
    I thought it was gonna be one of those "just kidding! moments. But nope. He said there were way more applicants than expected and they could only shortlist five of them, my application was outstanding and "nobody was more heartbroken" than him.
    Sorry to be a skeptic but I am both distraught *AND* skeptical now of this whole thing. I feel like the whole time it may have been just a game of torment from SR. Why build me up so much? When he was the guy who had the final say, why not fight harder for me? And many other things swirling around in my mind, all of which lead to me calling myself a worthless piece of ____.
    He wanted to give me more of a feedback session but I politely told him I wasn't ready for it all right now and would need a bit of time. I eluded to how much it would have meant to me, my life and situation- all of which he knew - and not looking for a sympathy vote from him but the bad news hit me like a ton of bricks. I vowed to myself not to get my hopes up for this very reason, but yet I still did - because it would have been such a significant and timely thing to happen for me (us).
    Still - I spoke to a friend this afternoon about it all and he reminded me that 'rejection is protection' and that something was not right for me there otherwise it would have happened.
    I've not been very productive this afternoon though as I keep dwelling on it and feeling very upset. LL isn't coming home until this evening which is a good thing as I wouldn't want him around this vibe. FGN is taking him out for the day to visit her friend and I expect spoil him rotten along the way.
    So that's todays news.. as ever, spreading the joy. Levi...x
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